When I came
from my land
if I really came from
my land
(am I not dead there?),
the rippling of the
river
murmured faintly to
me
that I sould remain
there where she parted
from me.
The pale dead
not vanishing in the
afternoon
they seemed to tell
me
that it was impossible
to return
because everything is
the result
of already having been
born there.
When I came, if I really
came
from somewhere going
to somewhere else
the world turned, alien
to my small self
and in its turning I
realized
that no one ever goes
away
or comes back from anywhere.
That we carry things
along with us
the treasure box of
our life
a rigid frame of bronze
around our most anonymous
cell
and a call, a laugh,
a voice
resounds incessantly
inside our depeest walls.
New things which happen,
whet our hunger for
basic food.
Our discoveries are
masks
over an even darker
reality,
that wound we bear
on the skin of our souls.
When I came from my land,
I didn't come - I got
lost in space
in the illusion of having
left.
Poor me, I never left
I'm still there, buried
beneath the gentle words
beneath the black shadows
beneath the golden ornaments
beneath the generations
beneath my own self.
I know,
this living being, deceived
and deceitful.